Whisper in the yard and turn the trees all into toys
Lay there on the ground, and turn the dirt into your joy
From what I see and what I know, it's all been boring lately
So I suggest we trade a question mark in for a maybe
Time your riddles right, and make a point that has no sense
Make sure that you're smiling, and the money's been well spent
Innocence and ignorance, it all goes hand in hand
I'm not sure that I'm right, but I hope you'll understand
I hope that you're still searching for the start that has no end
And all the plastic people have now become your friends
Before you start to drift and your soul begins to scream
I just wanted to tell you that you're listening to a dream

Anyone can call Antarctica: It's country code is +672.

The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i'm slipping away

After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday i'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn

The RAM is just barely big enough to accommodate everything.

Not comfortbly and more importantly, not safely. The vehicle itself isn't overloaded but the 'new tires' the last owner put on? They aren't rated for the the vehicle can carry! What a cheapskate douche. I was so mad when I found out. My vehicle can carry 500 more pounds then what the tires are rated for, and right now, those 500 pounds are definitely being used.

There's a scooter in here. Yes, you know, like... a motorcycle. That alone is like 500 pounds. And I couldn't take the rear seats out because I don't have an impact wrench strong enough to get the bolts out (thanks, Dodge). I even tried drilling them out and it failed haha. 16 years has kind of fused them to the chassis.

I think if I can get the scooter out I could take this beast on the highway safely. But it's got crap piled all over it (I'd have to basically unload and reload the vehicle).

And if I got it out, where would I put it until someone bought it, and then who would buy it without a driverside mirror (which conveniently broke last week), headlight bulb (which can only be bought online, which conveniently broke last week too), on top of averaging only 21 mph? 30 on a downhill?

But it has a new battery. Other than that it's pretty useless for people other than me. I can deal with 20 mph.

What should I price it at then? $100? The battery almost cost that much.

Aye.

Finally got a van today, '92 Dodge Ram 2500 w/126K miles... freaking humongous. My roomies were in awe haha. It comes complete with coolers, television and house window blinds. Plus it has brand new tires.

Total cost? $1200 bucks. And that includes the greyhound ticket to St. Louis and the gas to drive it back.

Get's about the same gas mileage my truck did... but hey, $200 for 6-month insurance policy and NO car payment! Annnnnd it's not a daily driver since I have the bikes.

Yeah. It's freakin sweet.

Dear GOD:

Why did you make all people so sucky?

What the hell man.

I was personally rejected by Leelee Sobieski.

Damn.

She's gonna regret that someday, lol.

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my
Childish fears

And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resinating light
Now I am bound
By the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased
All the sad in me it seemed

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I feel alone, all alone

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd
Fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me....

What if Obama's the anti-christ?

I must be getting pretty close

I dont really care, lol

WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO LIVE IN ZOO YORK CITY?

That was completely random but totally honest.

Aggg. I'm in so much agony. Eating an entire pie and drinking half a bottle of wine for dinner=

The most horrible thing you can ever consume and live.

I don't think I can ever remember feeling worse. Too full to move, to think, not drunk enought to dull anything, but drunk enough to have a headache, WTF?

AR!


I LOST THE HOUSE.

Yep, no house. Someone out bid my contract even though I was the first to offer the bank drug thier feet for over a month and during that time a higher offer came in.

And I have to be out of this house on the 1st, and I have nowhere to go.

The beautiful thing about darkness is from out of it you can pull every color.

My friends Kirsten and Doug got married in Joplin this weekend. It was... how can it be described? Simply put it -was- indescribable. It was just that beautiful. I've never seen them more happy and it's radiant. It's more than what I could ever have hoped for. Our God is an awesome God... if there was any doubt he reigns on Earth as well as Heaven, that debate is settled!

So there was a torrential downpour this morning on my way to work, it started after I'd already left, and I'd forgotten my rainsuit.

But before it started raining, the pavement was wet and I took a turn rather conservatively nonetheless my motorcycle rear lost traction, spun out like a door and threw me into the pavement hands first while the bike went skidding out ahead.

Miraculously, there isn't a scrape on me. I hit the pavement going 20mph and my ungloved bare hands hit and dragged along it...

And there's nothing.

The bike even runs fine with just a cosmetic scratch on the side that already had scratches.




HOW IS This physically POSSIBLE? It's FREAK-OUT-WIERD!

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me lean then watch me rock
Super Man dat oh
Yeah watch me crank dat Robocop

Super Fresh, now watch me jock
Jocking on them haterz man
When I do dat Soulja Boy
I lean to the left and crank dat thing Now you

I'm jocking on you, I'm jockin' on you
And if we get the fightin'
Then I'm cocking on you, then I'm cockin' on you
You catch me at yo local party
Yes I crank it everyday
Haterz get mad cuz
I got me some Bathin' Apes

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

I'm bouncin' on my toe
Watch me super soak dat oh
I'ma pass it to Arab
And he's gon' crank it up fo' sho'

Haterz wanna be me
Soulja Boy, I'm the man
They be lookin' at my neck
Sayin' it's the Rubberband Man, man
Watch me do it, watch me do it
Dance, dance
Let get to it, let get to it

Nope, you can't do it like me
Doe, so don't do it like me
Folk, I see you tryna do it like me
Man that **** was ugly

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

I'm too fresh off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank that Roosevelt
And super soak that oh

Super soak that oh
Super soak that oh
Super soak that oh
Super soak that oh

I'm too fresh now watch me do
Watch me shuffle, watch me do
Watch me crank that Soulja Boy, now Superman do it

Superman do it
Superman do it
Ahh

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch

Soulja Boy off in this oh
Watch me crank it, watch me roll
Watch me crank dat, Soulja Boy
Then Superman dat oh

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)

Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch me you
(Crank dat, Soulja Boy)
Now watch You, ahh you

I think it's been half a year since I created anything new. So here you go, new art. I call this series The Fall:

I shall now quote jennet:

"Hancock
I've been looking forward to this movie since I heard about it several months ago, so there was a lot of possibility I'd end up disappointed. I saw the bad reviews. I saw the accusations that it was just a plot-hole filled mess. I saw the 34% on Rotten Tomatoes. But you know what I've learned? I'm a LOT easier to please than the reviewers are.

I *really* enjoyed this movie. Yes, they throw the A-hole around a lot. I'm not going to justify that. Yes, it changes course pretty dramatically in the middle of the movie. No, the trailers do not do it justice.

I laughed. I cried (twice). I cheered and booed silently in the theatre. I love Will Smith as an actor, but I liked this movie for more than just his acting. I liked the story. We all love superheroes. So what happens when one of them falls? This is a story about that. About other things too. If you wanted to see this before you saw the reviews, and the reviews have deterred you, don't be deterred! Give it a shot. You might like it."


Annnnd she's absolutely right. The movie rocked. Critics are stupid.

Oh holy night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of our dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appear'd and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.

Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angels' voices!
Oh night divine, Oh night when Christ was born;
Oh night divine, Oh night, Oh night Divine.

Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother;
And in His name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy name.

Christ is the King! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

A little life-update, I increased my credit score to the 700's, got approved for a 100K+ mortgage and have been hunting for that diamond in the rough in this great (for a buyer) real-estate market.

I've been scouring for that perfect match to come along in the MLS for a long time and this morning it BLIPPED. A house that fell into foreclosure in the prized Southwest (no houses other than this one are in this price range in the southwest). It's been on the market for 4 days and only showed in MLS this morning.

Me and my realtor went by after work, then promptly wrote and submitted a contract tonight for my house,

aka 'The Fucking Mansion'!

This place has more rooms than I have fingers! Two living rooms? An office? A basement? Can we say glass sliding door on the outside wall? Haha! It's just a little more southwest than Campus View apartments, pretty much perfect for student roomies.

If all goes as planned it closes on the 18th and then... roomie shopping!!!

Does it get any better?

Yes!

Since it's a foreclosure house I'm only paying what the -last- guy DIDN'T. Meaning just by buying the thing, I get GOBS of instant equity! Every house around it it priced way higher, that fact alone will appreciate it, in addition to the equity I gain by buying it wayyy below market value.

Frickin sweet!

*squee*